I want to dig an hole and hide myself there forever and cry.

You know those moments when deep inside you knew it was already over but you keep believing that maybe it isn't... And keep walking based on that...

And you thought it wouldn't hurt as much as it does and when you're faced with reality it's completely different and it hurts as hell... And i just want to dig an hole and be there forever... And cry...
I can't stop the salty water. Where the fuck is this sea coming from. How have i kept a sea inside me all this time. And yet i cried so much every single week. Is this never ending.
Why...
I really would like to disappear. I'm so damn stupid... WTF ahah.... I guess wasn't ready for this afterall. I never am.
Im so stupid
Im so stupid
Im so ..  stupid..
Lame
Lame stupid dumb
I hate myself sometimes

I already knew didn't i???
THAN WHY AM I IN THIS STATE
LOL
LOOOOL
FUCK
Fuck...