today bad(s).versus.good(s)

I'm not feeling so great today, so, for each thing that made me feel bad, I will write down at least another good one, to neutralize (and maybe get special bonus!).

Bad things:

1× i had an headache during all the day
2× i felt down and out of place
3× i was insecure and feeling weird
4× i felt left behind and unmotivated
5× i lost the train that would take me back home
6× i couldnt focus on study even if i tried
7× i have so much things to do i cant even decide which ones i should do first
8× im sad that i cant organize myself and when i pick one activity i cant give my best to finish it because im very worried with everything

Good things:

1× i woke up in time
2× i went to all today's classes
3× i went to the gym
4× i ate proper meals
5× i ate one apple
6× i had one watermelon bubblegum
7× the sun was shining bright
8× i have in mind that i have to start studying and stopped delaying it to the next day, and the next one, and the next, ... It was hard, i havent done much, but at least I started it somehow.

(Special good awesome bonus!!)

9× i talked with my grandmas and they was fine
10× i talked with old online friends that i havent talked with in a while
11× i talked with irl friends by facebook
12× i called my mom, dad and brother
13× doggo is goodo at home
14× i was in the right time for dinner and my granny didnt have to wait for me for too long
15× i will try to have a good time before bed-time and sleep properly tonight
16× i reached 1st place on Duolingo gold rank with my japanese lessons (for today only? Or will i be able to keep it during the week?)

In conclusion:

The day wasn't 100% good and I felt down many times, maybe not everything went as i planned/wished. I realized that if i think and pay attention, i can see that the day also had its own positive moments. Not everything was bad. In fact, i was able to name 2 good things for each 1 bad, that's already very much goodness!

However, I still have my headache. I still am unmotivated and tired. This fact makes me think that not all the sentences i picked up portrait the same weigth when it comes to how they made me feel along the day. They dont have equal manifestations, they could have been classified with different points - sometimes, one good thing is not enough to neutralize one bad, and two (or even more) goods are not enough to deal with one bad. The same applies to when one or more bad moments can't defeat one good. This is not a matter of a simple 1 to 1 numbers, this is way more complex than that. Some of them have stronger effects in us than others.

In spite of me still not being feeling great, right now I can't deny that a big number of good stuff happened today, even if my darkest sides want me to believe that i'm hopeless and nothing goes well in my life. Doing this exercize, i could see clearly that i'm just lying to myself when my insides say that everything is bad. Like this, i can fight it back, and get better. :)