I have no courage to send this now

(05/05)

You know... I always miss you... There's not a single day i don't think about you. Ok Im trying to keep my life normal and do my stuff, remain good on my own, focus on my own goals... I'm trying even if I'm not being very successful... Still, there's not one day when i wouldnt like to be with you.

It's hard i guess. I know timings are not good, it's like they never are anyways... i understand things are difficult. Im concerned about you and I really wish i could help somehow... Maybe I don't have that power in my hands tho.

i think this whole situation is not doing much good for me too...
Imma be straight, I still love you. I've been holding these words. I've been holding myself. I've been trying to let go. I tried to move on, i tried to get distant, i tried to see you as every other normal friend. I've been trying too many things. I've been thinking so many things.

However... All this time has passed and I still love you.

I probably can't keep like this forever tho. I don't think this is good for me. But what can I do... If you know, please tell me. I'm so unsure about everything, except my feelings. How i truly enjoy talking to you... and how happy i get. on the other side, Im aware about how this hurts me as well.

Thinking about it, isn't it a bit sad how flowers are stick to the ground, without being able to move? People admire them, get fascinated by its colour and morphology, say that they are beautiful and so on... but then they just walk somewhere else... while the flower simply stays there.
Thankfully or sadly, I'm not a flower. I'm an human, I have my flaws as everyone. I can walk towards you, or I can walk away.

I dont want to make things bad, im just saying... Well, sorry.